AURORA, Colo. - Jordan Ghawi immediately flew into Aurora after hearing his sister, Jessica, was one of the victims in a midnight movie massacre in Aurora.
Hours after landing, he found out she was gone.
"[I'll miss] the smile, the energy she brought into a room," Jordan Ghawi said. "She had energy, and it showed. It radiated."
Jessica Ghawi was attending the premiere with long-time friend and ex-boyfriend Brent Lowak, from Bulverde, Texas. Lowak survived.
Jordan Ghawi blogged about the trauma and his experience Friday, writing the following:
"Brent and Jessica immediately dropped to a prone position for cover. Jessica advised multiple times for someone to call 911, which Brent immediately attempted to do. Brent then heard Jessica scream and noticed that she was struck by a round in the leg. Brent, began holding pressure on the wound and attempted to calm Jessica. It was at this time that Brent took a round to his lower extremities. While still administering first aid, Brent noticed that Jessica was no longer screaming. He advised that he looked over to Jessica and saw what appeared to be an entry wound to her head."
Jordan Ghawi went on to write, "Brent’s actions are nothing but heroic."
News 8's Monika Diaz spoke to Jordan Ghawi Friday night, and he said he wants this mass shooting to leave a different memory than previous tragedies have.
"Like I've been telling others, I can name you the shooter at Columbine, I can name you the shooter in Norway and I can name you the shooter at Virginia Tech, but I can't name to you a single victim," Ghawi said. "And I think this has gone far too long without us remembering the victims."
However, Ghawi said he had no anger for the alleged shooter. In fact, he hasn't even learned the man's name.
"I'm not going to let anger take any part of my life or my family right now," Ghawi said. "Justice will be had in court. That's it with the anger. I'm focusing on my sister's story and the other victims and get them out there. The less this man's name is spoken -- I still don't even know it. I refuse to learn it. The less his name is spoken on the air, the better off it will be."
Jordan Ghawi said he advised his parents not to come to Colorado after the shooting.
"They both wanted to come, I just did not think that this would be a suitable place for them at this time. I would think my strength probably comes from them -- they've built me up to be a strong person and now they're using me to lean up against."
Jessica Ghawi was a blogger and an aspiring sports journalist. She also shared a frightening account of her experience in June avoiding a shopping mall shooting in Toronto.
"I can't get this odd feeling out of my chest," she wrote. "This empty, almost sickening feeling won't go away. I noticed this feeling when I was in the Eaton Center in Toronto just seconds before someone opened fire in the food court. An odd feeling which led me to go outside and unknowingly out of harm‘s way. It's hard for me to wrap my mind around how a weird feeling saved me from being in the middle of a deadly shooting."
She wrote later in the post, "I say all the time that every moment we have to live our life is a blessing." Her brother echoed the sentiment Friday.
"[I want people to know] she chased her dreams," Ghawi said. "That's what brought her out here. She wanted to be in journalism, specifically sports journalism, she came out here to pursue that, and if anything, it should be a wake-up call for those that may be putting their dreams on the back burner. Now they can say, 'Hey, we don't have a lot of time here, it's time to live out those dreams.'"